Becoming closer to the deity of your heart means to offer to the divine. Not the self but the higher self. The journey to the self through the self. Transformation takes time. Become a master takes time, practice and a lot of patience. Only with deep devotion to our higher self, we will transform into our self.
Where do you need to release expectations of yourself so you can access flow? Choose one area in your life where you can breathe new loving devotion into and take action now. However your body feels today, whatever you look like, how much you have done or not, you deserve more love not less. Be gentle to yourself. Forgive the self who judges you, the one who feels shame. See yourself as the little girl you once were and talk to her. The inner child is the higher self. See yourself moving through the journey in a state of highest self love.